NETWORKING TIME IN TEST

UNDERSTANDING PATTERNS OF EVIL

A shrink that I once dated, once told me, don't play with the Titans. Tonight, for the third time, of no particular pattern, after a ' neighbor ' had left for ?, at 3:23 am, I went on another night time drive. In no particular direction, to visit old neighborhoods were small titans sleep. The night air almost brisk, almost clean. A nice night. The memories of the founders of the cities economic powerhouses of bygone years.

The funny thing is, for the third time, no fire emergency response vehicles, ' dead plates,' or that ' ghost EMT vehicle,' rambling around in my neighborhood. No Fire Trucks. No shadowed escorts, no ' Capture the Flag,' that is unless this post is to be taken into account. My point is this, when you hire on with a city to serve in the capacity of either protecting those who can not protect them selves or emergency medical care for people of all societal economic classes, you do that and NOTHING else. You have no legal authorization to shadow anyone, otherwise you would take better care of your ' handlers ' at the midnight hours.

The ' ghost EMT vehicle,' and all that that implies, is this, if you can't leave the taste of war behind you, then you and your ' BROTHERS ' have NO BUSINESS, NO MATTER YOUR SKILLS LEARNT IN THEATER, to serve the public in that capacity or Law Enforcement, or GHOST a neighborhood in concern of your own mistakes and simple mindedness; leaving a full ice chest of pistols and ammo on your front porch in reach and possession of a neighborhood ' thug ' to assume responsibility of ownership. Then to respond with an ( alleged ) home invasion as reprisal. This is wrong, no matter the reception of the reported incident to APD.

So one third spoken to. Don't ever try to play me again. You are PAYED to ' mend,' YOU WERE PAYED TO KILL, OR MORE APPLY PUT, DEFEND. IF YOU CAN'T HANDEL THE JOB...QUIT!...OR IF THE PUBLIC EVER GROWS A PAIR, FIRED!

IN MY MIND, ALL ' THE NATIONAL GUARD ' DID WAS PROTECT AN ALLEGED PEDOPHILE FROM INVESTIGATION AND PROSECUTION IN A TIMELY FASHION, IF AT ALL, IN MY NEIGHBORHOOD.

A NEW MEXICAN SON NO MORE, BUT SHE, MAYBE, WILL BE AGAIN, BY A SONG OF WATER

LIFE LESSONS IN JUSTICE

Today, started with donations to The Salvation Army. A trip to Walmart to pick up chewing tobacco. In the parking lot I was approached by a young lady, who while crying, explained a need for monies for a motel room. She was beautiful, blue eyes and yet on the streets. I tryed to help by offering a shower and a floor. The brunet said in so many words within a maze of confused offerings, of what might be considered English; no. An Indian homosexual gave her a few bucks, I gave her 50 cents. I'm moving, and this was explained to her. Her name was Sandra. Her son's name, Scot, who is with his father for unknown reasons. I told her that I ' saw (?)' her and her son five years ago, or at least the names. Maybe she really didn't have a son. She asked me to pray for her. I did and she asked for help, I offered help.

At the steel yard, I delivered an old welder that O.K. Harris had given me. It was a dinosaur to move. The old, yet dependable Toyota SUV, that I bought with 250,00 miles on it, and still going strong after moving tons and tons of cut up sculptures and steel, even withstood, tailgate and all, the 440 pound, dead weight welder. All gone, all Art. I thought for a brief moment that the good in Harris might leave too. I remember. " Aren't women extraordinary," he once asked. I said, " Yes."

I chatted with the attendant at the yard and told her of the young woman at Walmart, how beautiful she was and how she was crying for place to sleep and clean up. How beautiful her eyes were, and how I've seen beauty in brown, black, hazel and green too. How important it is to be well educated and to take advantage of all you can in the straight and narrow. I winked at her and nodded to her daughter. The attendant smiled, " Maybe she did." I smiled brief as I shook the attendants hand. I ' heard ' the names Sonia and then Sandra as I left the steel yard, I then turned up my I-Pod and listened to Led Zepplin's ' Going to California,' and met Sandra. The people we as a society loose with thoughtfulness and purpose. Sandra said she was an orphan, foster homes, until an adult.

After my last donation of plants for the day, from my seemingly endless ' Forest,' I made a trip up to U-Haul It, and searched for an axle for the sculpture to see if making it into a ' Sculpture-trailer,' was feasible. I pictured it in my mind and came up with a design that included the springs, though of smaller dimension and hired a man to remove it for $32.50. Upon payment, the price for the the axle was well over a hundred plus. The same woman with a tattoo of ' JUSTICE,' on her lower arm, above the hand. Her price, two weeks earlier was $ 15.00, about the price, a little lower than a gentleman quoted in referral of this business as honest. Anger, alright,... over. New Mexican at heart, no longer. Will I deal with Mexicans in the future, remains to be seen. My last name, I think that's just about over.

The one thing I hate more than the word ' Nigger ' and the sorry ass white racist trash, is the RACISM that I have endured for a lifetime and more so, now that I can ' hear ' and ' see.'

Some days are just better spent asleep. The only thing worse than giving up your Art for awhile, are your plants. Everything else is expendable. The nature of green is always forgiving through out your lifetime. The beauty of plant life, infinite in color.

Someone told me once, a veteran, that Art serves no purpose. I suppose in New Mexico, he is right. What's the Navy for anyhow?

THE REBIRTH OF WHAT WAS ONCE MOTHERHOOD

WHAT WAS ONCE ACCEPTED AS INNOCENCE,

NOW REDEEMED AS INDIFFERENCE.

IN BODY ONLY AS TECHNOLOGY

THE ONLY LIGHT,

SEEN AS METAL; COLD.

WITHOUT REASON OF MIND

OR SONG, OBEDIENT WITHIN

A THREAD, NOW GONE.

TO BE BUILT ELSEWHERE

YOU WERE MENT TO BE BEAUTIFUL

AS THE WHALE SONG OF SEAS

IN RELEASE OF DOVES

AS TOLD OF THE ELDERS

My faith in economy, money; the dollar bill, comes to a complete halt when I see pedophiles and drug dealers working hand in hand, getting away with complete and total immunity, seemingly provided by law enforcement, and praised in our society for it.
Some would say that giving my land back to the people I bought it from, might be crazy. Maybe. But I would offer, that when the acts of Pedophilia and the nature of lifestyles that have and do impose the climates for foundations of it's permissibility and further growth of it's ' environments ' growth, then the ' land ' as future ' dream,' or dollar as representation of ' faith,' in spirit of ' The American Dream,' has failed.

I don't want or need to be part of this ' New Dream.' Pedophilia or murdering babies. I've already ' heard and seen ' enough of it. And tryed to stop it, knowing full well what I was up against.

Value is just that, VALUE. Worth, in my opinion, is the amount of action as a representation in faith, in duration of ' economy ' seen and experienced by ALL as action against that which has been and is harmful to our children. As a whole society.

I'm going to be fifty this year. In many respects, I don't feel it, yet, when one feels and experiences a ' system, ' or part of it ( ? ) that does not work, well one moves. No clear public distinction between what is right and wrong exists in New Mexico.

Some would say, all money is ' dirty ' money, that money is money. Maybe. I believe, to a certain extent that money is ' localized,' or it's value as a perception, in the ' Minds 'of the people within the local. I see no value in the ' local ' representation of monies that I see and have ' experienced ' as JUSTICE.

So, I will start over from scratch, in different lands of a country based on the ' notion ' of freedom and JUSTICE FOR ALL, AND NOT LIMITED TO ONLY ADULTS. Should I find ' her, ' I might want children too, in a different state that protects her young when the parents don't.

In New Mexico, one of the Clear and Present Dangers are the Ideas that if you pay your taxes, then what ever you do is legal, no mater your occupation. In combination with donations to your local police and or sheriff, then you are immune to all inquiries and implied illegality of law. Another notion is, If Jesus died for our sins, then anything you do is ' right ' and just, because in the end you are forgiven of your sins. This is not true. This is a lie. ( This is a force outside of the practice of the christen religion. Jesus gave of his blood for your sins, not the other way around, to induce ' behavioural traits ' in order to commit sins, mortal sins such as sell children, have sex with children, rape, murder, sell drugs knowing they are are harmful if not fatal and doing all of this as lessons in example and practice as ADULTS. The other perspective, is of course from the government, of the time and of the elders of a religion, to wash there hands of MURDER. This is history. For the benefit of whom, would these new rules of morality benefit? The pedophiles and peddlers of destruction, all for the pleasures of the children for the ADULTS. But who would enable this path of divide and conquer, to get to the children before the caring parental love and teachings. We all have allowed it in one form or another from those who WE WORK FOR. BLIND AMBITION AS DIRECTOR, IN ANY FORM AND BEHIND ANY MASK, as virtue. )

Five years is a long time to fight for children when you don't have any. My talent deserves more. My value exceeds weight and my faith deserves more. My value as a person exceeds weight and my faith deserves a better ' localized ' economy. You see, it was never about money. It has always been about ' value,' ethic's on a grander scale, and how to impose an idea for change. Perception in terms of value regarding ' paper,' paper that is a representation of one's faith in a complete ' localized ' economy in relation to a future environment, to raise a family, or not, but the ' option ' is ' soulfully ' and ' environmentally ' secure.

GHOSTS-' Arlington Road,' A ' woman ' told me it was a good film.

I'm not a smart person. I have found that I can be ' directed,' but I WILL speak up and voice my opinion and give what knowledge that I know of, in order to protect children. If you are born homosexual, that's one thing, but to recruit children into a lifestyle that most would consider to be, not natural, in as much as, to dominate those who can not protect themselves from others (adults ), what can I say, other than that is OBSCENE. As far as ' FALSE ' technology goes ( look up the word technology ), the ' recruitment ' process has got to come to an end. Feminism has come to an end because the welfare of ALL CHILDREN has been over shadowed by the ' NEEDS ( ? ) ' of the few.

A person that I know ( friend ? ) who is gay, once told me that DIVERSITY is best. I think now that the label ' gay ' is just that, although she might be a feminist. No one's perfect. Men are by far the worst when it comes to predators. There are exceptions to the rule, believe me. Feminism is killing ' motherhood ' at an ever so rapid rate, that pretty soon all women might be seen as men as example and the idea of childhood and family will fall to the way side as refuse. And the only memory and example of the woman's suffrage movement will be the ' taste of ghosts,' in water supplies across the country of aborted children's laughter. Children that might of been, once. What might of been, never to be, now of feminist laughter.

TRANSITION OF SKY

THE SCULPTURE ' THE PROTECTION OF PRUDENCE BY CONSCIENCE,' WHICH IS NOW ' ICARUS NEVER FELL,' BECAUSE IF ICARUS FELL, THEN THERE WAS NO FATHER, THUS MOTHER, HENCE CHILD. IN THE IMAGE OF THAT WHICH, TO THIS DAY, CANNOT BE EXPLAINED; THE IMAGE OF GOD. A GOOD MIX, NOT THAT OF ' MAN.'

I WILL KEEP PARTS OF THE STEEL, TO BE BUILT ELSEWHERE. SEALED IN A CARING GROUND.

The sculpture, a small part of it, represents a hatred of ' race,' that an artist would, out of fear of the image of a black man, seen as a ' GANG BANGER,' a person of such low esteem and quality of ' real ' life, breed out of desperation of women, who, in order to support their ' identity ' of a 'WHOLENESS OF BEING, OF PERSON, OF SELF, OF HEART, OUTSIDE OF, AND INDEPENDENT OF HOLLYWOOD IDEALS, AND HER OWN SELF IMAGE IN THE OTHER'S EYE'S OF GREEN, BLACK, BROWN AND BLUE.

I ONCE MADE A STATEMENT, YEARS AGO, TO A YOUNGER PERSON OF COLOR, THAT " I WOULD EVEN FIRE IN DEFENCE, EVEN IF THE GANG BANGER WAS STANDING IN BACK OF A WOMAN ( GIRLFRIEND OR WIFE ) AND WAS HOLDING A CHILD. I NOW AM UNCERTAIN IF HE WAS OR NOT, THOUGH I'M CERTAIN IT MAKES NO DIFFERENCE. IT WAS WRONG. In short, hatred just takes up too much time. I don't even watch TV anymore and computer use is limited. The people who interfered with the reporting of child abuse, got away with it. FACT. But time is two short to give to hate.

I AM A LIVING TESTAMENT OF SOCIAL ABUSE, BECAUSE OF MY NAME, MY SKIN COLOR, WHITE, AND TALENT, NOT TO MENTION MY BELIEFS. I BELIEVE IN ONE GOD AND I HAVE SEEN, IN BRIEF, FROM DEEP WITHIN AND HIGH ABOVE, THE PUZZLE PIECES ( RACE AND RELIGION ) FIT TOGETHER, AS ONE, IN SPIRAL, AS HELIX, IN QUAD ( ' TRASH DNA,' IN SHADOW ), NOW, AND REMEMBERED AS A CHILD.

IN THIS WORLD, IF WE DO NOT WORK TOGETHER AS A PEOPLE, INDIVIDUALS WITH SOME RECOGNITION OF SOCIAL VALUES FOR ALL, IN EQUALITY, FOR THE WHOLE, THEN EVERYTHING WILL BE LOST. TRUST ME. THIS IS THE ONLY ' WATER WORLD ' LEFT WITHIN REACH. WE RACE BETWEEN ICE AGES TO BECOME WHO WE ARE, FOR BETTER OR WORSE. PRAY THE SHIFT IS GENTLE, THIS TIME. STOP GAMING, AND FILLING YOUR HEADS WITH HOLLYWOOD SHIT. THE HISTORIES OF SOCIETIES AND OF ALL AGES ARE BUT THE SURFACE, IN BETWEEN THE LINES ARE THE WEATHER PATTERNS AND HER ENVIRONMENT'S, EARTH, AND MAN'S REACTIONS THERE OF. THE SKIES OF THE TIMES HAVE ALSO SEEN VIOLENCE AND REACTED TO BY THE SPECIES, US, IN THE FORM OF VIOLENCE. THIS IS THE LAST WATER WORLD WITHIN REACH. THIS IS MY BELIEF, THE ' ACCIDENT ' OF THE MIXING OF THE WATERS OF WORLDS WAS A COSMIC EVENT, ' OBSERVED,' ONLY. IT WILL BE LEARNT THAT ' OUR ' SOLAR SYSTEM, IN THIS AGE, AS ABSOLUTE, OUTSIDE OF PAST SOCIAL CONTROLS, WILL BE UNDERSTOOD AS THE RESULT OF A COLLISION OF TWO SOLAR SYSTEMS IN OUR DISTANT PAST. NO ONE PERSON OR GROUP, INCLUDING RACE OR RELIGION, IS EXCLUSIVE OF NATURE, IN ELITISM, OF THIS EVENT. THE FIRMAMENT WITHIN, IS ALL WE HAVE NOW, AND HER, EARTH.

HOW WILL WE BE JUDGED IN OBSERVATION? BY OUR CHILDREN AND...? Will we stand for their rights, not to be abused by adults in example? Time is short, the earth is changing. A blind of white light can be extinction or an idea of defense, in proper, a reclamation of the idea of childhood for our young, without abuse as imprint, constant in duration, into the next age. AND DEFEND.